Sunday, 30 December 2012

There’s Always Room For Improvement!

Today I’ve decided I will get back to things I always wanted to enjoy – design. After having left all my notes and books and tutorials to dust and root I guess it’s time to get this things going. Since I’m on leave of absence from university, I thought that I can do little on my own and how damn wrong it was.

What have I learned at university? Nothing new. I had to look up tutorials, had to create the stuff same as I did before with kind of same effect! I know it’s late but I have come to realisation that universities teach you nothing. Unless you will start working on your own and get hungry for knowledge then it doesn’t matter if you attend the most prestigious art school in the country or not. Everything is up to you and your curiosity. So I’ve hooked up my pants and dug up everything I could – program licences, web tutorial database and video tutorials so I can get back rolling, I hope I will be able to show you some results soon enough.

Regarding my personal life it was time to get to basics. It’s hard to admit but sometimes you need to stop daydreaming and get everything working, literally. I have applied for few local jobs with my highest hopes set as retail assistant at Wolves FC store because this is the one that suits me best with location since it’s within ten minutes from where I live. I know it’s nothing special but since I need anything to pay off a bit of my university debt it’s always a good start. Also it will allow me to get back on my gym supplements so I can shape this slab of meat that I have for body into something more suitable for dog like me. And I want nice things! And nice things cost money so there’s no choice here. Hopefully I can start looking at brighter future from now on because I am really tired of this doom and gloom around me. 

Saturday, 22 December 2012

Glorious End of The World

Its day after the end of the world and surprisingly nothing has changed. Still feeling down with more debt, sad face and with no real progress in anything. Being twenty-five with my best option being a store assistant is not the life I wanted.
If you know me for some time you are probably used to my constant bragging about changing my life and doing nothing with that. I find that became some sort of my signature move. But right now... right now I’m on the verge of breaking down completely. I think I might have some sort of depression but so far no one was able to help me with that. I try to put myself together from time to time but it always fails and I’m going back to wasting day after day.
I just hope I will be able to pick up myself from this crap before it will suck me in completely...